My epiphany

So I don't know if anyone actually reads my little ol' blog, but I'm having a moment that I feel I should share. Even if it's for Henry's eyes years down the road when he is struggling to be a parent himself. OK...scary thought...anywho....

I fell in love with my son today. Yes, I have always loved Henry to pieces since the day I found out I was carrying his sweet little self in my tummy, but I mean I looked in his eyes, smelled his skin, and felt his touch in a completely different way today. Henry is MINE! He will learn about life, sharing, loving, and giving from Matt and I and the people and experiences we expose him to. Henry teaches me everyday to slow down and just cup life between my hands and love it, smell it, truely feel the happiness he does.

No one really tells you how hard being a parent is. Especially with your first. No one talks about those moments when you feel you are on the verge of insanity and all you can do is throw up your hands and walk about. The scary moments where you second guess your decision to bring another life into the world.

Henry makes these moments OK for me. He challenges me, pushes me, but in the end loves me. He makes me stop and take a breath realizing that this to shall pass and a new and fun moment is on it way. Can't you hear it, mom? I seriously cherish every single moment I have with him. Watching him as he sticks his tongue while wrestling the last stray fruit snack out of the pack. Or, seeing the joy in his eyes when he realizes that his daddy is home! HIS DADDY IS HOME!

So I thought I needed to share this moment with the rest of my blogger friends that all of the scary moments we share in silence are OK because those moments pale into comparison to the amazing life our children will lead because we care enough to be scared push through it and come out stronger on the other end!